A Different Kind of Question
Earlier in my life, seasons asked me to do more.
Work harder. Decide faster. Fix what was broken.
This season asks something different. It asks me to listen.
Not just to circumstances—but to myself. To notice what repeats. To pay attention to where resistance shows up and where peace quietly settles when I stop forcing answers.
Paying Attention to Patterns
Reflection has slowed me down enough to see patterns I once missed. How certain emotions surface together. How familiar reactions follow predictable triggers. How silence sometimes reveals more than action ever did.
This isn't self-criticism. It's clarity.
When I pause long enough, I begin to understand what this season is shaping—not by demand, but by invitation.
Letting the Season Lead
I've learned that not every season responds to ambition. Some respond to acceptance. Some require restraint more than effort.
Trying to rush clarity only creates noise. Letting the season lead allows meaning to emerge on its own timeline.
Faith has taught me that timing is part of wisdom—not an obstacle to it.
Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom." — Psalm 90:12
Wisdom doesn't hurry.
It notices.
Becoming Through Awareness
I'm becoming more aware of myself—not in a self-focused way, but in a grounded one. I understand my limits better. I recognize when I need rest instead of resolve. I'm learning that awareness itself is a form of growth.
Sometimes the most meaningful progress is simply knowing where I stand.
Staying With the Question
This chapter doesn't answer everything. It doesn't need to. It stays with the question instead of rushing past it.
What this season is asking of me isn't dramatic.
It's honest.
And for now, that honesty is enough.