The Man I Refuse to Become Again
Scripture: 1 Samuel 16:7
I learned how to work before I learned how to rest. And while that discipline kept me alive, I refuse to let it cost me my children.
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Scripture: 1 Samuel 16:7
I learned how to work before I learned how to rest. And while that discipline kept me alive, I refuse to let it cost me my children.
Read this chapter →Scripture: 1 Samuel 16:7
I wanted to be a father long before I understood what it would cost me emotionally. And somewhere along the way, I had to ask a harder question: was I unprepared for parenthood — or simply never allowed to grow into it on my own?
Read this chapter →Scripture: John 10:10
For most of my childhood, I didn't know there was a difference between surviving and living. It wasn't until I became homeless at seventeen that I realized how much of my life had been about endurance, not experience.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Ecclesiastes 9:10
I used to think tomorrow would arrive with clarity or change. Lately, it shows up quietly — and I'm learning that might be the point.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Isaiah 30:18
I don't need tomorrow to prove anything to me anymore. I just need to stay open enough to receive it when it arrives.
Read this chapter →A day filled with cleaning, familiar routines, and subtle shifts—where shared moments, quiet cooperation, and an unexpected question revealed what kindness really means.
Read this chapter →A new year always asks the same quiet question: What will you keep showing up for? This is why support matters here—at the start, not the end.
Read this chapter →This story exists because time, energy, and space were made for it. Support doesn't buy content—it protects the quiet needed to keep writing the next chapter.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Romans 15:13
I didn't decide to hope again—it simply showed up. This chapter reflects on the quiet return of openness, confidence, and trust after a long season of restraint, grief, and waiting.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Luke 16:10
I used to think tomorrow required answers. I'm learning that what it really asks for is consistency — small, faithful decisions repeated long enough to matter.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Galatians 6:9
Growth doesn't always feel dramatic. This chapter reflects on quiet progress, steady direction, and the encouragement found in recognizing how far I've already come.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Proverbs 15:18
Fatherhood has a way of revealing how much patience I thought I had—and how much more I still need. This chapter reflects on learning restraint, choosing calm, and understanding that leadership at home often begins with silence.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Lamentations 3:31-33
There is a loneliness that comes from being alone—and another that comes from betraying yourself to stay connected. This chapter is about choosing the first, and learning why it hurt less in the end.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Micah 7:8
There are seasons when the future doesn't look like a destination — it looks like fog. And maybe vision isn't about seeing far ahead, but about trusting the next step enough to take it.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Luke 16:10
Fatherhood redefines responsibility—from obligation to intentional love. This chapter reflects on the unseen choices, quiet sacrifices, and steady commitments that shape trust, character, and the lives entrusted to our care.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Proverbs 4:23
There comes a moment when love stops asking you to explain yourself and starts asking you to protect yourself. This chapter reflects on learning the difference between patience and self-abandonment—and how boundaries became an act of respect, not rejection.
Read this chapter →Fatherhood changes as you get older. After age 35, priorities shift, patience evolves, and a new version of dad quietly takes shape. These are the most common types of dads that tend to emerge—and chances are, you'll recognize yourself in more than one.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Psalm 78:4
One day, my children will look back on me — not as I was in a single moment, but as I showed up over time. That future version of me is already being written, one ordinary day at a time.
Read this chapter →Scripture: 1 John 3:18
Fatherhood is shaped less by milestones and more by moments. This chapter reflects on the quiet power of presence—learning when to lead, when to listen, and how showing up consistently leaves a deeper imprint than perfection ever could.
Read this chapter →Scripture: 1 Corinthians 13:11
I chased urgency instead of intimacy, mistaking intensity for connection and being needed for being loved. This chapter reflects on the hard lessons that come from loving without safety—and the clarity that arrives when you finally learn what love is not.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Lamentations 2:22-23
Tomorrow has always felt fragile to me — like something easily stolen by disappointment. But lately, I'm learning that the future doesn't need my certainty. It only needs my willingness to keep showing up.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Proverbs 16:9
Faith didn't arrive as certainty—it arrived as persistence. Looking back, I'm beginning to recognize God's hand not in the obvious moments, but in the quiet redirections that kept my story moving forward.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Proverbs 22:6
Fatherhood didn't come with clarity or confidence—it came with responsibility, reflection, and a quiet kind of faith. This chapter explores the weight, the growth, and the unseen lessons that come from choosing to show up every day as a father still becoming.
Read this chapter →Scripture: Psalm 34:18
Love didn't leave all at once. It faded quietly—settling into empty chairs, unanswered phones, and the habits the heart is slow to unlearn. This chapter begins not with romance, but with what remains after it ends, and the slow, honest work of learning how to hope again.
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